sadness is inevitable.

I was all alone in our house letting my music player do the shuffling in my playlist and all of a sudden, Sugar Free just had to play their Tulog Na song! (yes, I know it’s not their fault)

Tulog Na is a song by Sugar Free that my former boyfriend, Lucky, used to sing to me at night (when we’re still using Sun Cellular)… at first I was humming/singing to the song but after awhile… I just started to cry.. Hard. I think it dawned to me that those good times would never come back. They were all good memories now but it just hurts me that I can’t come back to those memories. It sinked it. It hurts. So bad.

We’re not together for two months now and I still miss him. Sometimes I felt like I’m the only one who miss him. It’s sad, really. It’s heartbreaking, even.

I still love him, i don’t know for hom much longer but i still do. He is my first love afterall.

Everything hurts and tears just won’t stop falling. :’-(

~ by che on July 10, 2009.