Blast of Contentment

“When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it’s not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.”

-Bella Swan, Twilight (Stephanie Meyer)

There are things that we wish for; things that we dream of; things that we knew we needed. Humans have unlimited wants and desires; and realistically, these wants or aspirations are far more stronger than the needs that presents itself so clearly.

I also have these wants. But I have to admit that these wants and desires are bearable. I’m always contented. I don’t have everything but I always feel like I have everything I could ever want.

For a girl, I’m fairly contented. I always am content.

Life isn’t always perfect; I know that perfectly well and I also knew that my life isn’t perfect.

My family is not complete and I realized now that It was never complete in the first place. But I didn’t mind that. You don’t miss what you don’t have.

My friends love me. At least, I think they do. I’m not the most friendly person ever but when I called you a friend, rest assured that I would be your friend for life. Call it loyal or whatever but it’s the way I am.

I’m never the type of person who wanted everything. I’m fine with what I’m presented to have; and normally, I wouldn’t ask for more.

But He came along. I never wished nor hoped for him; nor did I need him. I’m perfectly fine with my life at that time.

But he dared to enter my perfectly happy and content life. For the better.
When he did, I never knew that happiness like this existed. I felt loved and desired. Ironically, I love him too.

And I need him. It’s weird though. I never knew a need like this also existed. It’s a learning experience for me and I like it. Love it, even.

Life has been very good to me; and it presented a life that is far beyond what I expected. It’s as if my contentment has been dumped by a greater need that gave me another blast of contentment.

All I can say is I’m happy; and if ever this happiness was taken away from me, I’ll try not to grieve so much if this happiness has to end. I’ll work my way to be happy and content again. It would take a great effort as I have been in this blast of contentment for a long time but I’ll manage.

Like Bella would manage if ever Edward Cullen perish. (But weird enough, she did grieve when he left. Bella should really take her own advice.)

~ by che on November 12, 2008.