Disappointed.

I’ve been disappointed Thrice in 3 days. One disappointment a day. What fun!

My guy visited me last Friday. Visited is not the correct word though. I’m at starbucks with my friends last Friday and he called me via cellphone and told me he’s gonna go to my house. (he assumed that I’m home already) so I told him to fetch me at starbucks and he did. But before we went to my house, we ate at burger king. No biggie, just ate snacks.. burgers, fries, and all that.

At home, we watched HOUSE. I love the series including the sarcasm. It’s actually sarcasm that I love the most about House. I tried telling him to watch House or even Grey’s anatomy BEFORE since he is a student nurse and the series are more inclined to his course better than my course. haha. However, he didn’t listen to me. He had to be out-of-place when his classmates talked about the series for him to come and beg me to lend him my precious DVDs. haha. Of course, I did. I’m not that bad.

Anyway…

He’s been the usual affectionate guy that I loved. But of course, something disappoints me. I wouldn’t go into details of what had disappointed me but I really am disappointed. But I guess, everyone has their flaws. And I can’t expect him to be perfect everyday.

So that’s FRIDAY.

Yesterday. He told me he’d visit me. But disappointing me again, he didn’t. He’s a busy fellow so yeah, let’s give him a credit for that.

Today. He’s not really supposed to go and visit me but he told me yesterday that he MIGHT visit me. and yeah, he didn’t. Tsk. Sometimes I wish he didn’t say that.

I wish he just didn’t say anything so that it won’t disappoint me.

I guess, it’s a minor problem to you, whoever you are, who’s reading this rants.

But this is the problem that I had always encountered with him.

Sure, it’s not a promise.

He has this habit of saying these:

“I might visit you tomorrow”

“I might ask you about an assignment, so I’ll probably drop by your house tomorrow”

“If my schedule permits it, I would fetch you at your school”

Safe phrases right?

Sometimes, I just wish that he won’t say these phrases anymore and just text or call me whenever he’s available. Because really, even when they’re not promises, I would always be looking forward for it.

And when he can’t come, just imagine a child who is opening her Christmas gift and realizing that there’s nothing in the box but air.

It always hurts. In a minor way but still.. it hurts.

*As you can see, I’m not in my best mood. Not angry, of course. I rarely got angry but DISAPPOINTED. And unhappy.

~ by che on December 10, 2007.