Please, hearty, don’t

Awww. He said goodbye to me last night. Not “goodbye, get off the phone” but “Goodbye”.

I cried. I really don’t know what to feel. I don’t want him to go. I love him, I know I do; I just can’t say it because I’m so scared that things would change. I don’t want things to change; and I know it’s very selfish of me.

And now I just kept missing him so much.

My heart, why are you so fragile and weak? Please be strong; you can live without him. You can live independently without a guy. Please do. You know you can. Please don’t fall so hard. It would be very hard in the end to let go. Cause you know that things won’t go well if you push this relationship. Please stop. Please. I beg of you. Stop beating.It would be better for you, for me and for him. It really would.

love and all other myths

1. Say “I Love You”

Every Day Barbara De Angelis, personal-development expert: Say it as often as possible.

There’s no reason to be emotionally stingy with the person you love.

Nancy Kalish, psychologist: I agree that it should be said often, but it should be said sincerely, so it means something. Not just “Good-bye. Love you.”

2. Play Hard to Get

Sam Yagan, dating-website cofounder: Playing hard to get starts the relationship off on a deceptive foot. If you want your relationship to be based on trust, honesty, and communication, why would you begin it like that?

Greg Behrendt, coauthor of He’s Just Not That Into You: You shouldn’t play hard to get; you should be hard to get, because your life is so busy and fulfilling. My wife and I call it being a MOD―a moving object of desire.

Tip: Trying something new will give you the boost of energy you need to stay busy.

3. Your Spouse Shouldn’t Be Your Best Friend

Pepper Schwartz, sociologist: I agree. I think you’re asking a lot of your marriage to have the level of confidentiality, truthfulness, and disclosure that a best friendship has. Your marriage can fulfill only so many roles.

De Angelis: I disagree. If your spouse isn’t your best friend, then what is he? I think it’s important that you not only love him but like him a lot, too.

John Gray, author of Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus: I have no problem with partners who are best friends, but you should have other close friends to confide in as well―especially when you are having relationship difficulties and need time away from your spouse. Don’t put all your eggs in one basket.

Tip: Give your relationship a rest every once in a while and make time to be with friends.

4. Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

De Angelis: A little bit of absence can help you appreciate your partner. Too much is dangerous. Relationships need connection, and it’s challenging to stay connected when you aren’t spending time together.

Schwartz: To a point―and then absence makes the heart go roaming. You need a steady diet of intimacy and the other person’s presence to remember why you’re in the relationship. If you don’t see each other often enough, you can start to lead parallel lives instead of lives that intersect.

Yagan: Absence can make the desire and lust for your partner grow. But it can also lead to stress in a relationship, because phone calls or text messages aren’t substitutes for real conversation.

5. You Can Learn to Love Someone

Judy Kuriansky, sex therapist: That’s true, depending on how you define love. You may not have the love-at-first-sight kind of love, but the deep companion kind of love―in terms of trusting each other and being a team―can develop over time.

Behrendt: No, that sounds like settling. I don’t believe in settling, because it’s not fair to the person you’re with or yourself. It’s not like settling on an apartment you don’t love but can live with.

superlative!

This was noted in a friend’s FB and it was so cute and true that I have to put it here.

HUGS vs KISSES

1. hugs coming from the back are sweet, stolen kisses are sweeter but chocolates especially made for you are the sweetest
2. hugs give us a happy feeling, soft kisses are happier but being loved is the happiest feeling of all
3. hugs are wonderful, kisses are more wonderful but being in a relationship is most wonderful
4. tight hugs are breathtaking, long kisses are more breathtaking but someone asking your hand for marriage is most breathtaking
5. warm hugs are sincere, sweet kisses are more sincere but saying iloveyou while looking in your eyes is most sincere
6. being hugged is fascinating, being kissed is more fascinating but having a beach wedding is most fascinating
7. hugging is passionate, kissing is more passionate but romancing is most passionate
8. giving hugs are intimate, giving kisses are more intimate but giving yourself to someone is most intimate
9. hugging is a wonderful feeling, kissing is a more wonderful feeling but having someone as your lifetime partner gives you the most wonderful feeling of all ♥

bad.worse.worst

These past few days had been very eventful and exciting for me. It seems as if everyday is a new day and that everyday there is something new that would happen. Experiences just kept piling up that I don’t know what would happen anymore. It’s as if everything is a blur and everything is happening too fast.

The bad thing is… though I know I have the final decision, I felt like I’m not in control anymore with what is happening in my life.

the worse thing is… I don’t know if I can stand up and held my head high in this freaking situation. What I’m doing is not something to be proud of. It’s something a person should stop doing.

and the worst thing is..  I don’t want to stop.

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Pilya

I’ve been very blunt and pilya these past few days. I made a new bestfriend and I told this bestfriend many things about my life that only few people knew about.

Today, Lucky went to Anonas to give me a crocodile keychain and a souvenir shirt from his recent trip in Palawan. It was very cute and I love the crocodile keychain. I miss him though. He didn’t even kiss me.

Goodbye Tita Cory

Sunday, August 1, 2009, President Corazon Aquino passed away due to cancer of the colon. Today is the last day of the wake. The remains was paraded around the metro from La Salle Greenhills to Manila Cathedral.. then to the last stop to Manila Memorial in Parañaque. The convoy started early this afternoon and they had just arrived in the site (it’s 8pm at the moment). There are a lot of people in the streets making Laban signs and paying respects. Families, big and small, all of them… were at the sites. 1986 people who had taken part of the edsa revolution brought their families and their kids so they could witness a part of the history. It’s like history repeating all over again. I was not yet alive back in 1986. I’m a 1988 baby but I knew my history very well. I love watching documentaries and I’ve watched the documentary about Ninoy Aquino and the recent documentaries about Cory Aquino.

I’m sad, though, that I haven’t been part of the events these past few days. I wasn’t in Ayala Avenue last Monday; I wasn’t able to come today at Manila Cathedral; and Manila memorial or even the streets. It’s a regret but I’ve watched everything on the TV. Thank God for televisions and technology!

Kris Aquino, the youngest daughter of the Ninoy and Cory Aquino, gave a very sincere and heartwarming speech at the Manila Cathedral. I cried at her speech. You can feel her pain, agony, and her loss. She really is a mommy’s girl. And Cory had been their strength, their pillar, the one who would always be there for them and give them love… unconditionally.

I’m not really into politics but I know Kris Aquino and I know how hurt she was about the passing of her mother. I don’t know what I would feel if my mom would die too. I would cry bucket of tears. I don’t know what would I do if that would happen. I love my mom too much.

Cory, for most of the Filipinos, is the icon of democracy.

But for me, she is a loving mother and grandmother to her family.

That’s what makes her great.

jenny, oh jenny!

I’m really praying that jenny likes me.

Please, jenny, like me!

for your team, that is.

and a non-romantic like please. 

must be pride.

Wow. He just ignored me on YM. O.O
I don’t know what’s wrong with us.

Must be pride.

But I’m not one to crumble.

Or am I?

Mini-reunion

kreis@taguig

Kreis, my college barkada, had a mini-reunion at Taguig Global City.

Gist:

-arranged to meet teryo at fully booked, gateway before 1pm.

-went to mrt ayala station

-meet up with bok at glorietta 5

-julie, jehn, x and theejay arrived at ayala station.

-rode a bus to taguig global city

-met with jerber at a mall there

-love and glen arrived while we’re eating at tokyo, tokyo

-diane and jm arrived while we’re at a bookstore in taguig.

-went to jerber’s apartment.

-drank, got wasted, then went home.

Fun, fun, fun. <3